My Testimony :)

There is so much confusion in my mind… confusion of whether what I am doing is right? What exactly is God’s will? Sometimes we take decisions in our lives and later we wonder if it was in line with what god wanted.. whether it was this that God had planned for me? What if I had not taken this step how would my life be? What if I had not taken any decision and left God to do whatever his plans were? The series of “what if” would continue…

I was asking this to God in my heart, and here came the answer:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

So here we are all called according to his purpose.. so there is nothing… absolutely nothing that happens if it is not God’s will.. here I mean about decisions that you r taking…

Proverbs 16:9

A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.

“God has editing rights over our prayers. He will . . . edit them, correct them, bring them in line with His will and then hand them back to us to be resubmitted.”

– Stephen Crotts

Well, as always I came across these two lines, and don’t you think it’s so true, we can ask what we want, but God has the editing authority, he edits our prayers so we finally get what our heart is deeply yearning for… we might sometimes fail to understand what our heart deeply yearns for… but nothing WILL happen if it’s not HIS will…I would like to share two testimonies, where God gave me what I wanted, and one where he edited and gave it to me….. J

Well, exactly 5 years ago, as I was completing my graduation, it was my deepest desire to get a job through campus… that’s what I was studying for; it was why I had been so sincere, hardworking during my 4 years of engineering… I was very focused on what I wanted.. I wanted a job through campus. My didi had told me when I had joined engineering, that I had to study hard, get good marks, and as I was intelligent(it was her faith in me :P) I would get a job in campus, and this stress of getting good marks was due to the example of my brother. My brother is very very intelligent, way more than I am, but due to his focus on football, he never scored much in engg, resulting in a little struggle till he finally got a good job.. so I remember didi telling me to do whatever it takes to get a job through campus. And that was my ultimate goal… and I would like to share of how I got it exactly… not the way I expected.. But surely there could have been no better way!!!!

I was a good scorer in college, and as the companies that would come for campus interviews normally kept a cut-off, I was sure I would be able to attempt for all the aptitude tests… but alas, when I calculated my aggregate, it came out to be 57.something %, and most companies would ask for 58% and above.. so here goes my first disappointment.. Infosys, came and went, many companies came and went and I never gave the aptitude because I wasn’t eligible.. Then I remember Cognizant coming for campus… and I would always ask all of them if I could sit for the aptitude even though my aggregate was less than 58%. But all of them would say no,L. That day while I was idling in college, one of my friends just asked me, “how come ur aggregate is less than 58%? it’s not possible, you have scored well in all ur semesters.. Give me your marksheets.. lemme check..” and I was like, “come on how can I make a mistake in calculation, maths is like MY subject” but anyways he took my marksheets and he calculated them, and to our surprise it was 59%, I had indeed calculated it wrong. But instead of being happy that now I am eligible, I was very irritated, frustrated for all the opportunities lost, for all the chances I had just let go, and I remember going home and telling didi this and crying the entire night, for being so foolish, for all the lost chances, and I had just one question in my heart: why God??????? And God never gave me the answer.. Not immediately though J But I remember didi telling me, God must have something good planned for you… don’t worry… by somehow believing in her words I was hopeful again.. Yes god must have some plans for me, I am his child…so I was again hopeful.. But as most companies had come and gone, I had very few chances now and I had to make it through any of them…

Well, then as we were nearing the end of our year, Emerson, one of the best in our industry, had put on their notice that they would be recruiting freshers from our college. This came as a surprise, because, Emerson had never earlier come to our college for campus, so everyone was excited and me too… and as the story goes, I was the only one who got a job in Emerson, through campus of our college.

And that day, when I got the offer letter in my hand, I smiled and thanked God for finally giving me what I actually wanted.. and then I realized that even though I wanted a job through campus, I never wanted to work in a software company, I had taken Instrumentation as my stream, because I didn’t want to work in software… so u see God finally gave me what I wanted, but in his own way. I can never forget this big miracle that God did in my life…… and this job has given me so much than I could have ever asked for, so you see God knows the deepest yearnings of our heart, even though we have our own superficial one’s, he knows what we actually truly deeply want.

And the second one, is of my deputation to South Africa.. Well, a year back, I wanted to be away from my home town, wanted to stay alone for a year or so, for personal reasons. And I again turned to God for this… I informed my managers etc etc, that this was what I wanted and if there was any requirement I would be more than grateful if ul gave me the opportunity. And there was a requirement of a long term deputation to go to South Korea. But after getting my visa, all formalities done, the deputation was cancelled… I was so close to getting what I wanted, but God had other plans… I waited and waited.. Then came the South Africa deputation, and it was for 1.5 years, just what I wanted, and God answered my prayers. And I am so so lucky to be here, have met such wonderful people here, I feel truly blessed to be here. Now, here I always ask myself what if I had not wanted to go for a long term deputation… but I know the answer, God will never do anything if it is not HIS will, just as South Korea never happened. There would be no flight that would take me to South Africa, if it wasn’t God’s Will. I know this is God’s Will. He will never give me anything if it is not in line with his WILL J

There are so many miracles God has performed in my life, these are just an account of two of them, and I have written these down, so when ul are confused, wondering what’s happening, or what’s going to happen, ul know that God is always there, if u ask him to help you.. He will speak to you, give u answers u r looking for……. And this post is mostly for me to realize that God will continue to do miracles in my life… I just need to trust him, have no fear in my heart, but trust him with all my heart……..